sounding out numb

letting people/commercial structures package things/life/yours
first off, this blog
your food, that's convenient
news/entertaining moneymakers/efficiency hyperspeed
all for The Bank, it's called in that Orwellian novel
Republicans/Democrats
doublespeak, singlespeak is scary too
ads ads ads on walls/posters repetitive wall wall wall
it's okay; just a paper waste though: we're short on trees
war war war is bad is bad is bad
necessary necessary
for happiness fruitfulness profit
structural distraction life in life's lane
that cell phone accessory
accessory accessory trash tv
on all the time, and
numb

accepting

To eat
too much
in one sitting
with friends
my brother just came
in the city
and I
fell asleep
the second half of the movie
next to my girlfriend
because of food coma
and my brother has left
and I'm lying
in her bed
after a fresh shower
while she showers.

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girlfriend is such a
weird word to use
because it means not
what you mean it to
unless that's what you
think of her
and if it's different
there's no other
word to use.

Or maybe you're just growing into some monster or angel

There're some realities that you own, that for the sake of consistency your own body will not allow, to interfere, to surface like some tip of land almost, just above, the surface of water. It lurks, you know it, in that sea of consciousness, and at times, when you are less defensive, or unrestrained, not attacking the world, in your sleep, you remember. It takes hold. It's as familiar as any understanding you've lived by, day by day. It fades--like a dream, it fades, it ends, at some point, receding into the night before when some madness took over and you were not yourself...